Anonymous asked:
1 & 4
1. Are you a virgin?
Yes, verry much so.
4. Are you crushing on anyone? If so, who?
Nope, no “crushes” at the moment. I don’t think I really even want a relationship right now, I just want somebody to hold my hand and cuddle with me and make me laugh. <3
We don’t know what we want until we know whether we can have it or not. Once we know we can, we lose interest. Yet if we can’t, we attach. We sink our claws into a dream we insist we’ll reach, yet we don’t know what made us so sure, why we feel flames of want engulfing our minds, shooting through every vein in our body. And in the process we feel sorry for ourselves, we equate our life to every sad song or poem or quotation we hear or see. We either bottle up our feelings or pour them out to all who will listen. And if we never gain what our heart desires, we hurt for a long time, claiming we’ve been badly broken, making excuses as to how the other did us wrong or deciding we had loved and we have built up walls of mistrust for precaution. Yet if we do, we slowly begin to realize what, under the exterior layers of our heart, we knew all along: we never wanted them at all.
asdhfjdlskaf, yep.
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My Sister’s Keeper (via blackbruise
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(Source: slekes)
| 1: | Are you a virgin? |
| 2: | What are you majoring in? |
| 3: | What's your sexual orientation? |
| 4: | Are you crushing on anyone? If so, who? |
| 5: | What's the cutest thing someone's ever done for you? |
| 6: | What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? |
| 7: | What was the scariest moment of your life? |
| 8: | If you could take something back that you said or did, what would it be? |
| 9: | Do you think that the person who sent you this number was cute? |
| 10: | If you had to name three important details about you, what would you say? |
| 11: | Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? |
| 12: | Have you ever been in love? If so, are you still in love? |
| 13: | Do you like sports? If so, which ones? |
| 14: | What are four things you can't live without and why? |
| 15: | Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this number? |
| 16: | What do you like to do in your spare time? |
| 17: | What are your biggest fears? |
| 18: | What are two of your biggest weaknesses? |
| 19: | What are your three biggest insecurities? |
| 20: | If you could write anonymous letters to three people, who would you send it to and what would you say? |
| Anonymously or non-anonymously. |
I did not expect to see you there tonight. I guess it makes sense. But I hate it. I really don’t want to see you or talk to you, because every time I look at you I’m filled with hatred and bitterness, but if you look upset I want you to be happy and I wonder why, and if you’re laughing I just hate you even more and want you to feel miserable without me. And when I see you doing something kind, I see the you that I knew and sometimes still miss, and my heart breaks. And the whole time I’m trying to keep myself from looking at you and I don’t want to look at you but at the same time, I do. I want you to look at me and I want to catch your attention. I want you to want me back but I don’t want you back, but then I start imagining that happening and I don’t know what I’d do. I’m so utterly broken and hurt by you, my wall expands exponentially the moment I see your face. It’s a complicated set of emotions I can’t even begin to control. And then you had to go and wave at me, laughing, flailing your arms in the air because I “didn’t notice you,” when I was just trying to avoid any contact at all because I don’t know how to react to you, and frankly I don’t want to. This is ridiculous.
Just for the hell of it.
